**tisk**tisk** !!!

Yo, so what's up with this whole love/relationship thing? How do you know when it hits you? I'll neva understand these relationship things, I swear. I've been single and ready to mingle for a loooong ass time, and honestly, it sux ass!!! I don't wanna be soundin' all like I'm desperate or nothin' but just speakin' my mind. I guess for those that have been in a lot of relationships, the shoe would be on the other foot. But I can only give the perspective of a lonesome loser,so here goes nothin':
I've always, and still do, have this idea of having a family some day. my upbringing was fun and i learned a lot. It would be cool to replicate that with my kids I guess... going to the gardens, teaching them to read, etc.

But in the words of my ma , when we would pine after the toys and trips, "If I had everything in the world, I wouldn't give it to you." So true, because such "gifts" create unsavory personalities and behaviors.
I dunno, I guess as you get older, these ideas tend to slap you in the face over and over again. As time slips away, you tend to kick yourself in the butt for all the missed opportunities, such as being more confident and direct, not tripping off of pleasing others and being yourself... you know, all the shy things that little "not so hot", nerdy college students go through.
As you age, you tend to say "f*ck all those mofos that dissed you in the past, coz someone may be around the corner." You can only say that for so long though, because how many corners are you gonna turn?... I guess I'll neva understand. Is getting my own "JOSH DUHAMEL" too much to ask?
Any thoughts on this whole love/relationship thing? I'm all ears...

ApPY WOmans dAY 2 all my chica fwends n foes!!!

A woman is an inspiration, a source of light and a bearer of life; bringer of joy and of peace; weaver of harmony and ambassadress of understanding. It is to her that you come for comfort - in the softness of her breast and in the unselfishness of her caring arms. It is to her that you reveal your wounds for you know that they shall not be judged but accepted with strength and healed with a grace that asks for nothing in return. She is that which persuades you to reach your highest dreams and to believe in your best possible self. She is that which completes the song of your soul and calm the troubles of your mind. That in her frailty you may find your strength, and in her tears you may vanquish the sorrow of your own heart.

LJBF "lets just be friends " !!!

Hands up !! who hasn't heard this one before?

LJBF Translation:.This line often means “I don't want to see you anymore, but I don't want to hurt your feelings (or mine by being honest with you). . I want to keep you on a string just in case the situation/my feelings/you change enough to keep me interested.. "I hope the axe sticking out of your spine doesn't hurt too much.” ..

So when a guy plays the 'LJBF Card' on you. How do you take it?

In the past i would have probably called him 'confusing', called up my girls for a vent on how frustrating it was that he was keeping me at a distance when he blatantly fancied me. I would have continued to let him 'dangle' the carrot of 'something more' everytime i saw him.... feeding his ego and feeling 'useless' and 'unattractive' with the unspoken rejection he teased me with.

A good plan is just to walk away—LJBS (“Let's just be strangers”).

One step at a Time !!!!

"Yes, I understand why things had to happen this way. I understand his reason for causing me pain. But mere understanding does not chase away the hurt. It does not call upon the sun when dark clouds have loomed over me. Let the rain come then if it must come! And let it wash away the dust that hurt my eyes!"

There are times when life suddenly casts a shadow before us: we suffer for sins we did not even commit, we go through situations we certainly do not deserve to be in. In such times, we have so many questions throbbing at the back of our minds, but the biggest of them all is "WHY?"

I want to know the reason why I had to go through such excruciating pain. I want to know why I was not able to do anything to prevent the terrible things that happened. I want to know why God failed me, why He let me down at the time I needed Him most.

Yet even after I was able to answer these questions, the pain remains, life stands still, and I can do nothing but wait 'till everything's over, until I can move on again like I used to, when my hearts wasn't shattered yet into the thousand lonely pieces they broke into. I then come into answering my second biggest question, and that is "HOW?"

How do I deal with the awful feeling of brokenness? How do I to move on? How on earth am I ever going to smile again?

Like many people, I've been through dark and painful moments in my life as well, moments I wanted to skip, moments when what I really wanted the most is to have my own time machine so I can either go back where I was happy, or fast forward anywhere in the future where I can find myself again. But no machine like that has ever been invented yet, and the only way to move from the terrible place where I stand is to go through the dark tunnel ahead that will lead me towards the new beginning I'm looking forward to.