"Yes, I understand why things had to happen this way. I understand his reason for causing me pain. But mere understanding does not chase away the hurt. It does not call upon the sun when dark clouds have loomed over me. Let the rain come then if it must come! And let it wash away the dust that hurt my eyes!"
There are times when life suddenly casts a shadow before us: we suffer for sins we did not even commit, we go through situations we certainly do not deserve to be in. In such times, we have so many questions throbbing at the back of our minds, but the biggest of them all is "WHY?"
I want to know the reason why I had to go through such excruciating pain. I want to know why I was not able to do anything to prevent the terrible things that happened. I want to know why God failed me, why He let me down at the time I needed Him most.
Yet even after I was able to answer these questions, the pain remains, life stands still, and I can do nothing but wait 'till everything's over, until I can move on again like I used to, when my hearts wasn't shattered yet into the thousand lonely pieces they broke into. I then come into answering my second biggest question, and that is "HOW?"
How do I deal with the awful feeling of brokenness? How do I to move on? How on earth am I ever going to smile again?
Like many people, I've been through dark and painful moments in my life as well, moments I wanted to skip, moments when what I really wanted the most is to have my own time machine so I can either go back where I was happy, or fast forward anywhere in the future where I can find myself again. But no machine like that has ever been invented yet, and the only way to move from the terrible place where I stand is to go through the dark tunnel ahead that will lead me towards the new beginning I'm looking forward to.
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