If you can say goodbye to one you love, you can do ANYTHING.,,.... riding the emotional roller coaster !!!!

I've been on an emotional roller coaster for the past few days....its been life altering..giving me a new outlook on what I want to do and why; however, creating new and opening old wounds in the process.....i have learned that if you can say GOOD-BYE to the one you love ,you can do anything ....
At first i was in shock..as the shock weared off ..grief arrived.................
Next, a whole emotional circus stirs: "I'm free. I'm relieved. Yet I'm devastated. I'm furious, hopeful, afraid." My feelings broaden into a multicolored panorama. They included everything from the awesome sense of liberation I felt as a kid on the last day of school, to the nightmare sense that I just failed in my final exam. Back and forth...!!!
Everyone seems so eager to give me easy answers. Too few of those answers make complete and immediate sense. My sole certainty is that I hurt, really hurt, right now. That which had once seemed comforting has been wrested away from me. I find myself in murky darkness. I need strong, clear light, and all those near me have to offer is candles and matches.
Sad songs make sense like never before. I feel vindicated and defiant all the time, I am more wide open than usual, more vulnerable.
THE TRUTH IS, no one knows what's best for me. And there's a very good reason for that. No one really understands my personal experience like i do.
The hurt I feel contaminates all of my ongoing efforts to relate to other people. I am running into the same dilemma all over again , am I prepared to once again give up a piece of my heart?
I just pray that I can be strong.....Ultimately, life is not what you get, but what you give, Even if people don't appreciate what you have done, it doesn't matter because you have done what has brought you joy and humility....
I guess I'll close by saying this, it's important to live life the best that you can, as you only have one. Pick your battles wisely. And most importantly, never forget those before you and make a way for those to come.

Bum..i never wanted to say GOOD-BYE, thawt v wud always be friends ................never wanted to LOSE YOU !!!
you were by bestest friend ...i miss you sOooO MUCH and always will !!!!


I will not walk with YOU again
Beside a mountain stream;
Or down a quiet woodland path
Sharing all YOUR dreams.

I will not hear YOUR special laugh
Or know YOUR teasing ways;
No secrets shared, no looking for
YOUR smile to light my days.

I will not see YOU "digging in"
To all YOUR favorite meals;
Nor laugh or cry or hold YOU
Through all the things YOU feel.

I will not feel YOUR special hugs
And hold YOU in my arms;
Nor be manipulated by
YOUR smile...YOUR talk...YOUR charm.

But though its GOOD-BYE, within my heart
Are precious memories of
These special things...surrounded by
endless love........!!!

I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU !!!

BUBYEE MY FWEND !!!