letter i'll never send 2 ~

Hey you!

Outrageous. That's what I am. And I love every bit of it.

Can't strain myself more into thinking what should be written and what should not. I want to set the paper on fire with my words today. Write passionately, intensely, fervently.

Red. That's my color. The color of fire.

For every thing in life that hits me hard, I'm a go getter. My pace is slow; don't mistake it for a dying vigor. Give it your best shot. I'm gonna be the last one standing. Try me..
I'm full of life, wild and unbridled and free. I can't sit still only because you think I should. Play good music and I'll forget you. Really. You'd cease to exist.

I am polite. Don't ever tell me to be polite when I already am. I'd do the opposite, just to piss you off.I CARE but I don't need to FAKE IT like you. I like the comfort zone I live in. You're most welcome to come in and make yourself feel at home, just as long as you remember you're in my world and not the other way round. Pay respect to this place's decorum. I'd appreciate it.

I hate it when you classify me as useless or incompetent just because I don't fit into your tiny definition of being the ultimate success. There's a world outside of what you think and trust me, I'm out there and trying to live my dreams. I haven't given you the right to pass judgement on me yet. Well, you had it when I gave it to you without asking. But you lost it for being your never-happy self.

I hope you understand what I'm trying to say here.

Regards,
Warm sUnsHine.

MemOries forgOtten ~

I genuinely believe my life is made up of millions of tiny memories I gathered all the way from my childhood. No matter where I am, no matter what I do, the 'hows' and 'whys' of my life will always shape up according to what these memories and experiences have made of me. I'm happy and deeply grateful to God for giving me the kind of life that will always keep me searching for the positive perspective in anything.

Remember how as a child, you were fond of little things? You had no greedy desires, no ambition big enough to tire you from life. Your dreams were simple dreams. You clearly knew who you wanted to be when you grow up. I want to be a teacher, a doctor, a pilot... There were no strings attached. It was as simple as that! You found pleasure in little things, things so small you're always overlooking them now.


Sad you forgot how the rain maddened you with happiness, sad how you stopped feeling the wind just because it will spoil your new hair do, you forgot how you used to believe in fairy tales. You forgot how you loved to draw with your finger every time the window glass was hazed with cold in those chilly December nights. Do you remember how fun it was to play in the soil? Build sand castles? Why have you stopped doing it? Just because it will spoil your clothes or make you dirty? *smiles*
I owe many of my dreams to those surreal fairy tales I read as a kid, because they taught me miracles can indeed happen... to ordinary people like us. Somewhere in my heart, I still believe in fairy tales and magic and miracles; may be they won't ever happen, but they will keep me going.

We all need a belief to place our faith in. It works as a sanctuary for our tired and beaten hearts. My heart is a glowing candle as long it has faith. When I stop believing, I cease to own that light.

Look inside yourself. See what your childhood innocence has taught you. We were closer to God back then, and we all were simpler beings. When we prayed, our hearts shone with delight because we completely believed somebody was listening.


NOw pLaying : Everybody Hurts | REM

When the day is long and the night, the night is yours alone,
When you're sure you've had enough of this life, well hang on
Don't let yourself go, 'cause everybody cries and everybody hurts sometimes...

CHOice ~

I would give the whole world for it if that's what it takes.

But please don't ever make me an entry off your to~do list ...

I will never want to be a duty .

I want to be the choice you make when you have all the options in the world !!

Mood : HopefuL

Now Playing : No One | Alicia Keys

No one, no one, no one

Can get in the way of what I'm feeling......

Fairy Tales ...Or Faries faiL !!??

Fairy tale... I think not. We've all heard the story of Cinderella and Snow White and maybe even Sleeping Beauty. Each story leaves us with the hope that we will one day find Prince Charming or his brother or maybe even his closely related cousin. What the fairy tales don't tell us is that they're not real.

Try this picture on for size, I don't really have the best luck with...ANYTHING...so I feel if I were to stand at the front of a ship I would be there just to block the birds from hitting the person behind me.

Ladies have you ever found a guy that you thought was PERFECT; the guy you want to spend the rest of your life with?

So you found this guy, and you swear he is the replicant of a Greek god. I mean ladies come on this guy is H-O-T hot, he treats you like a princess and just to top it all off he has a rock hard butt....

WARNING : they do what they need to hook ya but once you think your with the next prince charming he flips on ya!

We have to watch out for the bad frogs....with my luck I found a toad...guess I got to keep trying!.... dam the overwhelming amount of frogs out there!....We just got to keep believing the fairytale despite everything!

I know that fairy tales aren't real and I know that everyone will find their own Prince Charming, but watch out for the bad frogs; and if you happen to stand at the front of a boat in Titanic style remember to duck if you see a bird coming your way!

Letter ill never send !!

Dear God,

It's like one of those times when You push me in a tight corner and I become a grumpy kid throwing tantrums and being unreasonable. I'm a little short on common sense (of course You know that!) and so I take time in getting the drift. I want to thank you for the immense courage You put in me every now and then. Well, You often do it a tad bit late but I don't mind. No sirree! Every one has a point up to which they can handle stuff. So You made mine farther more away than the rest, I find that awesome. That's so like my mama by the way, and it feels great You gave me some of her streaks.

I'm sorry for all those times I thought You weren't looking my way, like I said, I'm a little short on the brain cells. You made me a person of heart, I think, I feel, I live from the heart. I thank you for all that too. But most important of all, You showed me uncertainty and fear and then You taught me to put it all in Your hands. I feel assured now, like someone has placed a kind, healing hand on my disturbed, beating heart; it gives me a sense of calmness that spreads everywhere inside me. You bring me back every time and I know You love me better than anyone else does!

- A humble human.

FAITH ~!

MOOD : WhimsicaL

nOW pLayinG : somewhere over the rainbOw | Eric CLaptOn

Somewhere over the rainbow

Way up high,

There's a land that I heard of

Once in a lullaby.

Somewhere over the rainbow

Skies are blue,

And the dreams that you dare to dream

Really do come true.

Someday I'll wish upon a star

And wake up where the clouds are far

Behind me.

Where troubles melt like lemon drops

Away above the chimney tops

That's where you'll find me......

Sunday ScribbLings !!!

When I was a kid, I couldn't wait to grow up to discover the one big happiness that will make it all worth it. To me, that point would be the climax of my life. It would complete me in the sense that would be the thing I will be striving for as I grow. My parents would be proud of me on founding my purpose. I imagined it to be an award, presented with an audience cheering for me. I always imagined myself taking it as a trophy or something, my parents watching me with intent eyes, swelling with pride as the world recognized whatever the good I had bestowed on mankind! Absurd, I know.

I grew up and so did my silly notions. I found life is a journey; not the one that revolves around a single moment of happiness, but a journey filled with countless such tiny moments.

They say your attitude determines your altitude. You can either sit and wait for that one big moment of glory, or you can find happiness in every tiny moment and appreciate it.

Happiness is a state of mind. It doesn't come looking for you. You have to open yourself to it. Think big!

Have a beautiful life!

What comes to your mind when I say "big"?

I hope you have an eventful week ahead!

Loads of huGGies n Kichus ~~~