FORGIVENESS ....Whats it for?

I have had a very trying week, full of discovering different levels of deception, my mind, and heart, have been so consumed with these 'things' that have happened, that I haven't been able to think clearly or even have a moment of peace. I have been battling it out in my mind, whether I forgive , or simply move on and remain bitter.

. . If we really want to love, we must learn how to forgive. - Mother Theresa

FORGIVENESS ....Whats it for?

So i asked myself: "Am I willing to waste my energy further on this matter?" the answer was "No," then that's it! All is forgiven.

Then i realised that forgiveness is an act of the imagination. It dared me to imagine a better future, one that is based on the blessed possibility that my hurt will not be the final word on the matter. It challenged me to give up my destructive thoughts about the situation and to believe in the possibility of a better future.I suddenly felt confident that I could survive the pain and grow from it.

There is nothing so bad that cannot be forgiven. Nothing!

"The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong."--Mahatma Gandhi

The hurts won't heal until I forgive! I realised that constantly reliving my wounded feelings only gives the person who caused me pain power over me. Instead of mentally replaying my hurt, it helps to focus my energy on the healing, not the hurt!

Forgiveness is a journey. I may never forget AND I choose to forgive. I can forgive and tomorrow I may feel the pain all over again. As life goes on and I choose to remember and feel the pain, then is the time to once again remember that I have already forgiven. Mentally forgive again if necessary, then move forward. When we allow it, time can dull the vividness of the memory of the hurt; the memory will eventually fade.

I am reminding myself that we are only human. Sometimes people do and say hurtful things. It is important to focus on what you have done to learn from the experience.

For me the only upside of all the anger is the person I have become.someone that wakes up and realizes I am not afraid of the journey. Someone that knows that the truth, is at best, a partially told story. That anger, like growth, comes in spurts and sits and in it's wake leaves a new chance of acceptance and the promise of calm....

Forgiveness works! It is often difficult, AND it works!

So yeah !I choose not to be angry anymore... I am taking the first step.My eyes closed, taking a deep breath in and then breath out ....feeling the weight literally lifted from my shoulders.

. . Love is an act of endless forgiveness. - Peter Ustinov