half the girl I used to be...

Have you ever stopped and thought about the person you were some years back and the one you are now? Do you regret not knowing anything you'd rather have? Or do you think you were better in some way? 

 
There are nine questions ...It's fun, do take it up. And now, without further blabbering, I'm jumping into mine! :) 

1. Do you feel that you are essentially the same person that your were ten years ago?

I'm not the person I was ten years back, I have grown, rather evolved, emotionally. The girl ten years back had no idea of the world outside her little home. There are so many things I still don't know but I consider myself improved in the letting-go department. I was childishly cribby about change, still am, but coming to terms with it now has helped me a lot. It helped me grow. Ten years back I let my life be led for me, today I decide it's something I have to carve out for myself.

2. Is there something that you have to give all or nothing to?

I give my all to the people around me and I expect the same. People are something I cherish, because inside everyone there lies a certain beauty you can't help appreciating. Every person I don't know completely is like a book I've still to read, intriguing and captivating. The only difference is that unlike real books, I can't flip to the last page and get a sneak. Getting to know people is a joy in itself. You don't know they can teach you :)

 

3. Have you ever gambled? What have you bet on and for how much? 

Have I ever gambled? No, never. I don't even know how to play cards! 

   *makes an innocent face*

 

 

4. Can you sleep anywhere or does it have to be in a bed? 

I just have to sleep in a bed no matter how tired I am. My bed has to be soft and the pillows fluffy; I'm a little fussy with pillows. Nothing beats the feeling of sleeping in a comfy bed when you're tired or better yet, on a cold December night inside a warm bed!

5. Tell us about the most disastrous or embarrassing first impression you've ever made on someone.

Why don't we move on to the next question and come back to this one later? 

*looks here and there*

6. Do you have a memorable "ripped clothing" moment in your life? No?

Sorry, i can't share this one here, hehe!!

 

7. What's changed on your blog since its inception? ...a redo? ...a change of pace? ...or is it about the same?  

At first I used to write for exploring my creativity, now I write to explore myself! My pace has changed, I'm blogging more and more frequently now.My blogging experience has definitely undergone a major change.

8. If you could travel back in time and whisper something to yourself ten years ago, what would it be? 

I would tell myself that forgiveness is indeed a virtue, but some lines need to be drawn somewhere. I'll tell myself no matter how much you love someone or something, you need to bend to the principles you make for yourself and stick your guns to it.

 

9. Okay, let's have it! What's the craziest, most impulsive thing you've ever done?

I went looking for a friends house in the middle of the night (friend who didn't want to meet me ) and I was adamant that I wanted him to hear me out because I cared .....

sheesh kebab !! that was one adventurous night along Bigfoot road.I would have never been able to do it without my lady of candaLabia ...GLoria Fernandes **kichus**

I guess that was too impulsive and stupid. I still wonder how I did that? :D

Okay, now your turn!

 

Writing for a cause - STOP putting ur parents in * old age hOmes * --- How can u forget what they did for you !!?

I am going to tell you an interesting and inspirational story of a pencil and an eraser ......

Once the pencil was feeling sorry for the eraser that for every little mistake it makes, the eraser has to erase it & in doing so, it loses a part of itself. Thus, its life becomes shorter and shorter in order to obliterate pencil’s mistakes.

Same is the case with our parents. They are with us in all the ups and downs of our lives, when there’s nobody to support our decisions, when we really need someone to take a stand for us. I’ve learned from my own experiences that at the end everyone you trust will turn their backs on you. Your friends, your relatives and even the one you love. But the only person who’ll be with you in the time of need is your mother and your father. We don’t really comprehend their contributions in our lives. We don’t realize what we’ve got until we lose them or until we have to stay away from them or until they’re gone. When we are young, we hate their interferences, we dislike their lectures, we loath their advices. But then, we miss those advices, those lectures when there’s nothing left in our hands. And trust me, only then we realize how true they were.

God has created our parents, so that they can teach us what they’ve learned from their lives and experiences. And I believe that each and everything they’ve taught us will help us some day in our lives. But alas! We think that we know better than them and that they’ve got to learn from us how to spend their lives ‘our way’ rather than learning from their experiences. And when we realize that whatever we did was wrong, it’s too late.

Our parents dedicate their whole lives for the sake of their children. They work hard and try to give us a luxurious life, they bless us with all the necessities of life and in the end we give them nothing but our ignorance and anger. ...

 So guys, let’s start doing something good for our dear parents. Lets make them feel special and tell them what they really mean to us. It’s time to pay back for whatever they’ve done for us, because it's never too late!

STOP putting ur parents in * old age hOmes * --- How can u forget what they did for you !!?

 

 

Thank you for visiting !

Stay Blessed !

Have a great weekend ...

We are aLL different shades of the same coLour !!

With all the things I've been through, the people I've befriended, the people who've inspired me,and touched my life, today I want to know exactly the kind of people I should have around me. The time to put up with the wrong ones is over with. I realize how necessary it is to have the right people around you in order to be happy. It's not called being selfish. It's just called picking up the right company for yourself.

I've often been the fool, given second chances some countless many times, and ended up realizing a second chance is a bad idea after all. But then, I don't want to lose a loyal friend or a sincere lover or any person for that matter by being too egoistic to give another chance. That's just not me. I've always found myself intrigued with new people and at the same time, attached with the people already in my life. One soon realizes nothing in this life is valuable as long as you haven't found the one worth sharing it with. The confusion is, when to give a chance and when not to? *thinks hard*


As I retrospect, I come to the conclusion that love wasn't the only (basic) thing I was looking for. Respect was and is equally required. Love can't stay where there's no respect. Similarly, where there's respect, love will eventually blossom. I talk about love in its widest sense, people.


I wish I could read people's mind and knew how they think. I wish there was some set pattern, some defined rules or principles that could have been applied to know people. But I guess that's the beauty of life anyway, the uncertainty, the surprises, the unexpected, the unpredictable. 

Oh, and may I add... the weather is simply lovely in Bangalore... Its raining and  I'm sitting by my window and this breeze is almost heavenly!

                                        Now PLaying| My girL - Temptations

I've got sunshine on a cloudy day

When it's cold outside, I've got the month of May I guess you'd say What can make me feel this way?..

A woman brought you into this world, so you have no right to disrespect one....

DAIRY OF A BABY : 

15th June--->I get attached to the Ovary.
30th June--->Mama said to dada "ur gonna b a father"--> Ma and Da r very happy!
15th Sept--->I can feel my heart beat.
14th Oct---->I have little hands,legs,head and a stomach.
13th Nov---->Today I was in an Ultra-scan.
Wow !! I'm a GIRL ...

MOMMY, DON'T KILL ME MY LIFE HAS A PURPOSE DON'T TAKE THAT AWAY FROM ME... *PLEASE!*


14th Nov---->I was dead!

......WHY ???  :( 
Is it bcoz I was a girl ?? 

People Luv to hv a MOTHER, a WIFE, n of course a GIRLFRIEND too..   then Y not a daughter ???

  PLEASE SAY NO TO FEMALE FOETICIDE !!!

BREAKAWAY ..........

walking on sunshine.....

I persuaded myself to walk further. The corridor seemed endless. I hadn’t a clue where I was heading, but I knew something at the end of that tunnel invited me. It was a fine stream of light, the one that could only come from something as brilliant as warm sunshine.

My path had been a difficult one. When I started this journey, it was a dark, lonely one. I remember their kind whispers, the loving support… those words they said over and over so they may reach my almost dead heart. They had reached me… how else would I have found the courage to start this journey into the unknown?

Bitter-sweet moments; they didn’t make me cry anymore. I remember everything that had happened. Etched on my heart were secrets untold, and upon revealing, you’d see the person in an entirely new perspective. Memories flashed before my eyes; days of innocent love, sleepless nights filled with strange voids. I remembered certain, strange warmth… I remembered being protected, the magic, the aura… I danced in pure happiness. I remember fears and I remember pushing them aside. I stop. They start hurting again, i mean ... those lovely memories… the lonesome moments here with myself again.

I finally see light at the end of this tunnel and I can tell by the look of it that it’s pure, warm sunshine. I hear their whispers in my ears, the notes of support they chanted to me when getting up and starting was the hardest thing to do. Aimless though it was, I now discover it’s only the beginning that demands most of our courage. Their words echo and I can feel their happiness. I have finally found the light that will show me where I’m heading. I have no regrets… what we had is gone. The moments that made me cry now only bring happiness. I’m happy because it happened. I bring my hand to my heart, whisper my gratitude to the ones who had my back, telling me they’ll catch me if I fall. My friends, my well wishers, my loved ones… I have come to the light. The tears only made me stronger and I kept your words close to my heart.

This is the end and I already know I have arrived to a new beginning. It’s a wonderful sight. I can see the sun shining, I see the world smiling back at me. I feel loved. Yes, this is my destiny.I’m here and I’m back. The love, the care, the affection… it brought the warm sunshine in me back.

I’ll shine!

Now PLaying :Breakaway | KeLLy CLarkson

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I love
I'll take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway

Only FOOLS.. fall in LoVE and, i guess i'm one of em !!

Dear LOVE ,

You're kind of a big SissY !! You complicate things , you make happy people unhappy and you act like a total bitch at times.

But this world won't be a lovelier place without you so you get away with everything ....

How do you do it ???

Good Show !!!
Blaze.

Now PLaying : I'd Love you to want me | LobO

Baby, I'd love you to want me
The way that I want you
The way that it should be
Baby, you'd love me to want you
The way that I want to
If you'd only let it be.

Is Heaven far awaY ???

Sometimes I just wish I had God's cell phone number to get to him directly ...

"Hey God, it's me. It's a lovely day out here you know. I wonder where You get all the amazing ideas from." Or may be something like, "Just this morning I woke up at day break and I had to say You're one amazing painter! I just loved all the shades and the art work!" 

Of course God would be used to all the praise and any thing you say won't ever be new. Everything you say, he'd already know. 

Ah well, that's just a random thought. I'm back after a break from God knows where [groan!] I need, like, a long vacation from everything that seems to pull me into a monotonous, repetitive routine. I feel like there's something up in my mind but I can't put my finger on it; too many actually. And as I go through my phone book for the hundredth time, I so wish I had God's number.That would be an easy way out to find out where all of this is leading to, and who gives up first: me or them? 

The best part about all this already-best-in-every-way convo is that God would really know me, really, really know me; in all my ugliness and in all my beauty. I won't have to hide a thing. 

I'll leave you with a positive thought nevertheless...

Often we stand at life's crossroads and view what we think is the end, But GOD has much bigger vision and he tells us ...

"Relax, its just a bend. Not the end."